The purpose that belies your iridescence
Represents the candor of your faith.
Against every pull of gravity,
And against every pull of weight,
With bare hands,
You touch hands of Grace.
As fearlessness drives your will to strive,
A card dealt by demons sets you straight
To look into impatient eyes
And a heart that fails escape.
But, adversity to advantage you seek.
Weeping at the losses that pose you weak,
But only to set eyes on change
What once was a downfall
Has now become a peak.
Who am I without you but be a heart without purpose?
Before you, I knew not what security felt like.
Before you, I knew not what love looked like.
Before you, I knew not what real commitment was.
Now, I cannot love you less.
I see more than a 5 year plan.
I could not relate more than ever.
We work hard for love because all great love stories are worked for, selfless, unconditional, patient, and kind.
As I’ve gotten to know the one I love – with each passing day, I am becoming more willing than the last day to pursue everything that is good and beautiful about our relationship.
It has been worth it.
He doesn’t have to like or love everything about me, but despite that…
He still loves me anyway and I love him just as much.
I have never been so sure in my life.
I had always known I wanted to be with you.
I had known from the beginning you were special.
As for how special…
I have learned so much of what makes you special.
Even when we do not see eye to eye, it is our very differences that complete each other’s complex puzzles. You complete me in more ways than one and I could not have gotten the most out of this 26th year if you were not such a big part of my world.
In fact, you have sort of become my world.
You have made me better.
This relationship is very important to me and what we have experienced in the last week and a half has made me realize that I want so much more from this and I have never wanted it as much as I have now.
I want a future with you.
Last night evoked some unspoken fear.
I found myself in the same room with someone who had physically, emotionally, and mentally scarred me…
I had never felt so shaken up.
It was the first time to be in his presence and the scariest part was I didn’t even have to see his face to know it was him.
Hazy memories had flashed back for a moment and I shook and almost wept because I felt so sorry for myself that I was still pained by the effects of what he had done to me.
As quickly enough as I felt the fear, I felt the love because soon after I dipped away from the aura of negativity, I found myself in the arms of someone I felt loved and safe with. I remembered what I was originally there for and who I was there for. All he had to do was hold me. His love is the most important thing and it keeps me strong.
In my fear, there is always faith and love that completes me to be stronger.
To the man at my side, you are everything that is love, thank you.
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It sucks that I have to feel pretty just to feel good.