“I am too busy”

To tell someone “I am/was too busy with other things” and lose the mindfulness of being thoughtful in little ways and/or the awareness of how to treat others as they would like to be treated is no longer a good excuse. 

I refuse to settle for such.

What happened to “trying”?


What is this that I feel? 

I feel like I’ve loss some sense of security from the looming doubt you hold onto and it hurts like hell to think that you don’t see compatibility in us when we are in conflict but I’ll be honest…

I’d rather have these ups and downs now so that in our future we are strong and steady.

I have faith in that.

I firmly believe there’s a silver lining to all this.

I wish you’d see it, too.

They say compatibility is when things can exist and occur together without conflict. But, conflict happens in relationships. Not every compatible relationship is without it. So that’s just not a true definition of compatibility. Things may not seem normal, yes, but if I were to look at the bigger picture, I know this isn’t us and we’ve just been under a lot of stress lately. I am also not saying that when things get hard, we are not going to be able to handle things the right way – sometimes it just takes a lot of practice to get things right, compromise, and collaborate on exceptional relationships where both individuals have high standards for themselves and for one another.

This is not forced.

I am working hard for this because this matters so much and to prove to you that this is a real love, a love that can overcome challenges for the long run and that is unconditional.

I don’t love you “just because”.

On our many other given days, we are perfect.

You and I don’t want easy but we work hard to see that things do get easier and we feel more secure.

This is just one of those moments and this is just how I feel.